Wednesday, February 9, 2011

mon petit monde

I'm playing with the idea of starting a new blog. I'm pretty sure that would take my blog total up close to a billion unmaintained blogs. But hell, my world is small, and getting smaller every day.

For example: in September 2007 I signed into okcupid and saw a profile that captured my attention. Even though the girl lived over a thousand miles north of Tucson, we struck up an intense correspondence. It wasn't long before we discovered that we used to live across the parking lot from each other in Murfreesboro, TN. Eventually she came to stay with me in Tucson, and the day she departed I got an email from someone else in Tucson who, it turned out, had also come from Murfreesboro, and in fact also lived across the same parking lot from me & Leslie.

And at a show last night, back in Tucson after so many years, I met someone else from Murfreesboro. She even knew people I know.

But sometimes other connections can be even more interesting. Like in dreams.

Yesterday morning I got an IM from my friend Linnaea, saying she'd been thinking of me. In october, she had a dream about me that led her to contact me. The resulting conversation played a huge role on me rejoining the Long Road.

And while I was at the Murder by Death show last night, my friend Marc was asleep and dreaming:
By and by, I'm not sure exactly why, but I just woke up from accidentally falling asleep and had an amazingly lucid dream of us traveling together. You handed me a homemade friendship bracelet someone else had given you from someone we had apparently met before, and said they had sent it to us to show their life had improved from knowing us. Crazy.

He later described the dream in greater detail:
We were sitting on benches, almost like bleachers but not in any kind of stadium, with you two rows up, but not really that far away, just so that you were behind and slightly higher up than I, and we were on a ship, sailing away.
The size of a yacht, but something older, more character than a modern ship
And after the exchange I mentioned on FB where you gave me the bracelet, I turned back and was looking at what in the dream seemed to be the city of Seattle, wondering if I had left anything in my apt…like I really just sort of took off on impulse. I came to the conclusion that I should trust myself and believe that anything I really needed, I already had on me.
that's sort of where it ended.
What's weird is that the bracelet was something from someone you and I had helped together, a thank you gift.

Oddly enough, the thought in my head is that this person was a prostitute and we had somehow helped her with her life to the point where she didn't need to be anymore.
Thanks man…like i said, it was pretty fucking powerful.


Meanwhile, here I am in Tucson, staying with Leslie and her husband Charles, who share some of my interests in home and community. And while Charles and I are making supper, I get an email from Stephani, a friend from high-school, telling me she's going to be living in a yurt on an organic farm in Tennessee come the spring. And another Stefani, who lives in Tucson, and whom I met on a train two months ago, posted something on my facebook wall about Tennessee farmers who get paid for generating energy on their property.

I'm not sure if stories like this happen all the time, and I'm just superstitious enough to obsess over them, or if I just have a knack for attracting weird stuff, but either way it's frequent enough to have hundreds of stories.

adventure, excitement, really wild things

FRIDAY
I met Pam in the Safeway parking lot at Sunrise & Swan, at 9AM.
Actually, I met Pam at Barnes & Noble at Broadway & Swan, three years ago. She was one of the co-workers who regularly attended MetalHead at the Cactus Moon. And then she was one of the previous co-workers who visited Seattle, back in the day. But this day, she was a traveling friend.
Pam had a desire to be Navigator, so I had the somewhat rare pleasure of driving.
We had remarkable conversations on our way to Scottsdale, to Taliesin West, the winter home of Frank Lloyd Wright.

SATURDAY
[farmer's market, library, drinking with Charles]

SUNDAY
[Superbowl Sunday, hungover, meditation, cleaning, driving, hiking, picnicking, hot tub]

MONDAY
[OMG henna]

TUESDAY
[WTF henna, words from Linnaea, Miss Joan, Ethiopian food, cosmology lecture, MBD show]
[Court Anonymous's Small World: "Do you know Jena?" Yes. "Do you know Tommie?" Yes.]

"I know there's better brothers, but you're the only one that's mine."

Saturday, January 8, 2011

validation

"Gay bar." I'm at lunch with one of the most influential people in my life, and once we're seated and starting conversation, these are the first words I hear him say? His wife explains that we are at "the local neighborhood--" and he interrupts her. So here I am, at the local neighborhood gay bar, with Daniel Quinn. The Quinns are known here: Rennie's paintings are on the wall, and whenever they are seated, the servers set the table with black napkins instead of white.

I don't know how to start a conversation, and for whatever reason Mr Quinn was not starting it either. Rennie, his wife, was more chatty, though, so we both took the back seat and let her lead the conversation. Over an hour and a half we talked about a wide range of things, so I don't remember everything we talked about. She asked me where the Barnes & Noble was in Seattle, and said they had only been to Elliott Bay Book Company & Third Place Books, for book signings. They love the Icon Grill, and that seemed to redeem their entire opinion of the city.
This is the kind of conversation we had. I was sure that my mind would go blank when I got there, so I asked people to help me think of things to talk about. Leslie gave a a dozen good ideas, and Scott provided plenty as well. I was prepared to talk about so many very different things. And we talked about Barnes & Noble.
(I was delighted that, when the subject of nook came up, Daniel Quinn had no idea what we were talking about.)

After the ebook wall had been breached, I asked if they had a large library or if they just put books back into circulation (they live within sight of a Half Price Books). They only keep books that they expect to revisit, but even so these are enough to require library stacks. Their neighbor has a nook, and loves it. THIS IS WHAT KIND OF CONVERSATION WE HAD.


Including, among other things, a lunch with Daniel Quinn, couch surfing, a personality test, my entire life, and the future of the world.

http://www.ishmael.org/Interaction/QandA/Detail.CFM?Record=667
Personally, I feel we're doing "better than expected." I've been very impressed with the ever-increasing awareness of our situation that reveals itself in books, graduate-school theses, publications of all kinds, and in every medium. To my way of thinking, a "Quinn-changed" mind is ultimately always a "self-changed" mind. It's very different in a cult; a "cult-changed" mind is NEVER "self-changed."

Thursday, December 23, 2010

conditioned existence

Going outside to talk on the phone, visiting with katie at Nathaniel's wedding
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Tuesday, December 21, 2010

well check this shit out

[Christopher Anonymous]
10:16am
[i am] burning up with desire and passion and need get out
[Christopher Anonymous]
10:19am
yeah i feel SO restless lol
i feel like...hmmm...I'm not a normal person like
you do A then B and move to C and everything is ordered and arranged according to how it "should" be
i don't even think I could do that if i tried haha
[Court Anonymous]
10:23am
me either, bro
and, i think you do try.
or you have tried, in the not-too-distant past
so you know what works and what doesn't
[Christopher Anonymous]
10:27am
i THINK i'm best at music idk lol
[Court Anonymous]
10:28am
sure you know
[Christopher Anonymous]
10:29am
yeah
i believe i tell myself i think
and prevent myself from pursuing it cuz i'm scared
and want to try and be normal
[Court Anonymous]
10:30am
well it's good to not keep your views cemented, to always question them
i hear ya
[Christopher Anonymous]
10:31am
i'm not against taking the time to consider what is and isn;t
i just seem to be my biggest enemy in the arena of my passion and goals
[Christopher Anonymous]
10:36am
I seem to have trouble doing this all on my own...I'm not a follower, and I couldn't lead many people anywhere lol...but I need to find something in the middle and make it work

Sunday, December 19, 2010

time on fire

Two weeks ago this time yesterday, I was just sitting in a train station in Seattle. Two weeks!

In the weeks preceding that, I was stressing about how to get "everything I could not do without" into my pack. I bought a pack more than double the size of my original pack, and still didn't fit it all in.
I've been shedding things since then, and am pretty sure it won't be long before this pack is far more than I need. Keep this up long enough, and I'll become the monk I set out to be three and a half years ago. (Only three and a half years?!)

Since I've arrived at my mom's house we've watched three movies (probably eight hours), and three and a half hours of TV. I haven't been here for forty-eight hours, and I've slept for twenty of those. I remember Geshe Michael Roach talking about returning from a three-year retreat and spending days watching movies. So I don't feel too bad. But I've only been "gone" two weeks! Am I just throwing myself into comfort? When I hit the road again in a month, will it be as painful as these past two weeks have been?

Yes. That's the point.
It's like being on fire.

Monday, December 13, 2010

testing

Trying out a new phone app that will, hopefully, make blogging from the phone suck less.

I just got into Hollywood. Already I prefer the previous hostel. Those people were all Travelers who happened to have parties. First impression here, these are mostly Partiers who happen to be traveling.
As a guy from the shuttle said, "eh, LA. The movie stars can have it."

Checked in with my father. He asked, "what are we meeting for?" Meeting? "I thought we were meeting each night with a cop." We're not meeting tonight. I'm in LA. Why would we meet a cop? "I was waiting for a cop, for the pill." What pill? What's going on? "Oh, I've gotta go, Court. I'll call you back in five minutes."
Rinse/repeat x 3.
Can't tell if he's on drugs or if his brain's gone wrong due to some blood sugar issue. He said his blood sugar is fine. Guess I just have to trust him for now.
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